"I will...

"I will always be a stranger who never feels at home, who does not really want and is not really wanted, who can never belong, who must always be a little in love with death" Eugene O'nell Long Days Journey Into Night

random quote time

i'm gonna start posting random quotes...for lack of better things to type

wierd

everyone has been acting wierd lately, i dunno y, all at the same time everyone has seemed to just start acting strangely.... thanks to nick and matt for maintaining their sanity.... hehe, but their the only ones... i think.... probably forgot someone.... oh well, i think its just me.... probably just me.... are lauren and pat alive and well? i hope so because i see none of them anymore.. oh well... they have stuff to do... hmm....well...yeah.......oh, and i don't want to hear it ryan, this is complete train of thought....i don't need to break up everything into sentences... whats with everyone always commenting on punctuation.. i don't get it... its a journal..... y does it matter.... i don't understand.... and i could write a better english paper than all of you (my friends up here) excluding lauren.... so i don't understand why we always comment about punctuation and spelling in a journal....

good morning good morning

this weekend did me lotsa good, i'm all rested up now hehe, thats alwayz a good thing...considering how i was when i left...i missed pats friends though :( and probably missed seeing everyone as flaming drunks hehe, darn, oh well, i'm tired....already, and well....yeah....cya

fun

still having fun down here, hehe, me and nick both got telescopes hehe, i got mine for $40.00 and he got his for $25.00, hehe, they are like $300.00 telescopes, that was kewl hehe :) They are pretty cool, something about a 910mm telescope, with motors to move it, i just have to push buttons to make it do stuff. Oh well, n e wayz, its massive funness down here, i can't wait til summer, i think i'll end up doing stuff with nick this summer, my friends and laura like him hehe, she said that he seem really polite hehe :) I got to see my homeys from down here and sleep in my own bed, haven't done that in a while, its so comfortable, i have a queen sized bed hehe, can't beat it at poly hehe, stupid squeaky, saggy beds...oh well, its me and laura's one year!! yay, don't know what to do though...afraid of ruining it ..... hopefully i won't. I might be able to convince my friend joe to come up with me to poly next weekend....doubt it but i can try hehe. cya, gotta go see laura :) bubye

massive funness :)

I'm down at lauras dorm now, i made the drive safely, and dougie got me a carwash because i gave him a ride to SB, that was really nice of him....and my car really needed it....it was a brown camero for a while. Last night was fun, i'm sure theres no need to elaborate, and today will be even more fun. My buddies from home are coming down so we can go to the fashion island mall, and nick is going to meet us if he wakes up in time too :) This should be massive funness :) Nick was supposed to be on his way right now but one of his little sibblings said that they wouldn't wake him up because he would "beat their head off" hehe. Now he just called and said there was a car accident in front of his house so he couldn't pull the car out of his driveway!!! LOL, i think thats funny hehe :) n e wayz, i guess he is going to meet us to go to fashion island and then newport beach, which is right by the mall hehe, this should be fun :) I was dieing on the drive here yesterday, but i got to take a break at my dads house, it was awesome, i forgot that i would loop around to get to my dads house if i went that way, hehe, so i talked to my stepmom, and my little sister is playing clarinet, and my little brother is going into highschool next year!!!! thats crazyness, oh well, but it was good to see them, and she drives so fast in her bug, the new turbo ones are really fast hehe, it was fun hehe. Oh well, the drive only took from 330-830...total, that wasn't bad, oh well, gotta go, my friendz should be here any minute, we gotta go meet them :) cya